lifeinthehive asked: haven't seen you post anything in a while

I died.

lifesforwardmovement asked: How much was that whole sewing up process ? Was it worth it ? What made you decide to take them off for good ?

It was $300, it probably varies depending where you go and of course it was worth it, it was something I wanted done and they did a great job. I got tired of dirty looks and stupid questions.

Anonymous asked: What happened to your plugs !?

I had my lobes sewn up.

I’m really insecure. Not about everything but there are personal things that I feel insecure about and it makes really hard for me to get close to people. No one puts in enough effort. I’m not saying I am worth more effort than anyone else but honestly, if you really want me, you’re going to have to show it and probably work hard for it.. The sad part about that is that most people don’t have the capacity to do that, everyone is so afraid of putting something in and getting nothing out of it.. Well, that’s fucking stupid, I mean if you want something how else are you supposed to get it unless you work for it? And just because that thing may not immediately want you back that doesn’t mean you should back down. I have a feeling I’ll be single for a long while more. It’s already been six years and I just don’t see anyone putting the effort in that I require. Everyone is scared of being hurt, being embarrassed or of being let down.. Those are a part of life and if you want something, those are things you may have to feel. Why be afraid to be fight for something? I promise you I’m worth it, I just can’t give myself to someone who won’t show me what I mean to them.
I’m so tired of “I didn’t want to text you, I thought I was being annoying”. Do you honestly think I would text you every day if I was getting annoyed with you? Why would I bother ever replying if you were annoying? You not texting me shows me a general lack of interest, why is it always my job to contact you first? Why can no one ever contact me first? Small things like that make a huge difference, if you can’t even make the effort to contact me I can’t be worth much to you.

I’m so tired of being alone. I’m so tired of laying awake every single night thinking of what my life could be. Nothing bums me out more than the loneliness I feel, I hate it and I’m tired of it but I’m not worth enough to anyone for them to fix it.

I hope I find my someone soon.

Every time I come on my tumblr and look at my dash, I just get so angry and jealous at all the incredibly gorgeous women/boobs/butts I see. This website is torture.